Freedom ~ Living in God’s Realm by Nur Sakeenah Thomas


Bismillahirrahmanirahim
Sharing my final musings in my final months in Universiti Putra Malaysia (2006-2016).
Rumi Set me free
Someone asked me: How do you feel after you have converted to Islam? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel after you have been deprived of your rights? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel being thrown into the middle of the ocean? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel being pushed down from a 24 story building? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel when you are left on your own searching for the meaning of life and quest for knowledge? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel being an immigrant? I answered: I feel free.
Then the person said: But why my friend???
Aren’t you feeling, depressed, frustrated, hurtful and fearful???
I really really don’t understand you!!! Do you still want to be a Muslimah?
What about your children, aren’t they a load?
See what Islam has done to you? Are you really happy?Can you please tell me why before your studying months end???
Finally I just smiled and answered: Of course I am deeply hurt, no one can deny it as I am a normal person but I really really feel the freedom through submitting to God.
Yes, of course, I still want to be a Muslimah and I am still learning to feel the serenity, strength and beauty of freedom living in God’s realm because Islam has set me free…
The Quran is my life-jacket, the Prophet and his companions are my inspiration; my children are my lighthouse and of course, I am happy.
I am the happiest Mommy in the world and you, my dear friend, you will understand me the moment you feel what true freedom means in Islam; and you will feel free from depression, frustration, hurt and fear because God will set you free..
Thank you Allah for your endless blessings!!!!!

“…Truly my Lord is with me, He will Guide me through.”(Q26:62)

Do'a Imam Ash Shafiee

At the uni’s library..taking continuous steps (2006-2016)..1st degree 2nd degree & now its the final degree Alhamdulillah

http://nur-inn.blogspot.my/2016/04/freedom-living-in-gods-realm.html

MARIA DETAINED UNDER SOSMA, WHY NOT? by Jee Abdullah


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When our Inspector-General of Police (IGP) Khalid Abu Bakar disallowed Bersih 5 rally to proceed, no one in the Bersih 2.0 steering committee or the opposition leaders took notice to ensure that they abide by Section 10 (C) and Section 11 of the Peaceful Assembly Act 2012, that is to get approval from Dataran Merdeka owner, the Mayor.

The police have also reminded numerously, should Maria Chin and Bersih 5.0 are adamant to go ahead on their targeted date 19 November to hold their gathering in Dataran Merdeka without the PAA’s requirement, then they should realised that they did not meet legal provisions and hence violated the stipulated Act. Tell us which part that these so called law experts and law abiding people in Bersih 2.0 steering committee are unable to understand?

Therefore, Bersih 5.0 rally is illegal. So when Maria Chin is detained under the Security Offences (Special Measures) Act 2012 or SOSMA, why the need to dispute it?

As stated clearly that Bersih 5 is an illegal rally, the green light from Maria Chin and her steering committee to proceed is thus encouraging to go against in maintaining public order and the people safety. The police is correct to carry out instructions to stop illegal Bersih 5 rally when it is obvious detrimental to the security of our nation.

Should any opposition leaders questioned PM Najib’s assurance that SOSMA will not be affecting on politicians, they ought to proof that Maria Chin have held any position in any political party, then SOSMA should not be imposed on he her. If Maria Chin is merely a political instrument, as chairman of an NGO that has violated the laws that have threatened the public order, then SOSMA is very appropriate and she is a threat to our nations’ security.

If the oppositions needed to be reminded that Maria is chairing an illegal rally “which is prejudical to public order in, or the security of, the Federation or any part thereof ;”. Her detention is thus necessary to stop action as stipulated in SOSMA when she has initiated “to procure the alteration, otherwise than by lawful means, of anything by law established”.

As a seasoned political watchdog, Ambiga should have extensive legal knowledge affecting illegal assembly that the police in no way are liable to facilitate them and what more to ensure participants safety. But her statement to demand for the police presence is as though very obligated, not only that she is misleading public opinion but in fact she is inviting the police too to be unlawful.

What Ambiga should have done as a former chairman for Bersih 2.0 steering committee is to advise Maria Chin and her people to fully comply with the Peaceful Assembly Act (PAA) procedures and abide by rules and regulations as stipulated under the PAA. Instead she has chosen to incite to condemn the police that they are denying the illegal Bersih 5 rally rights to a peaceful assembly. Is Ambiga a truthful and an apt watchdog?

The keywords to Maria’s SOSMA detention are ‘agreeing and allowing’ to be manipulated by certain opposition leaders as a coup instrument. Unless Maria and her Bersih activities detached themselves from these group of usupers, their demands may stay applicable.

She needs no one to blame except the unscrupulous politicians and in particular Dr Mahathir and Kit Siang for ill-advising her. The vigil in solidarity with her is not enough to correct the situation as Maria has to be on her own to face charges for all the wrong reasons to satisfy those villainous opposition leaders. But… you asked for it Maria!

Kak Jee

Azeeza Abdullah

http://mantra-indeeptots.blogspot.my/

The demise of MCA by Hajjah Lily Hashim


The demise of MCA

RUU 355 & the last coffin nail for MCA
Liow Tiong Lai
MCA was limped and had to rely on pro UMNO Malay voters in small margin Malay dominated constituencies for many years since GE12 (2008). Sadly with the latest MCA objecting to RUU 355 (Syariah law which only covers Muslim in this country) MCA is signing its own death warrant

To many betrayed Muslim voters, MCA is more ignorant that DAP. While the latter enjoyed undivided support of Chinese community in Malaysia, MCA latest political miscalculation on Syariah issue that touches the nerve of every Muslim and makes Muslim give undivided support irrespective of their political ideologies means one thing- MCA can no longer enjoyed the immunity of being categorised as Muslim friendly ” kafir zimmi.”

Thus today MCA is at par with DAP, kaffir harbi

For DAP, no matter what may be the outcome of RUU 355 today, they have the undivided support of the Chinese community. Hence DAP can steadily brace for next election and still win handsomely from the Chinese community.

Contrarily for MCA,who have been borrowing political lifeline from Muslim population/voters , this means the demise of MCA in the next General Election

I do hope PM strategists read the outcome of today’s event and be prepared for one thing- Please be smart and do not field MCA candidates or BN will lose miserably in next GE.

Anak Bukit Gantang
http://anakbukitgantang.blogspot.my/

BERIMAMKAN NAFSU DARIPADA BERIMAMKAN WAHYU oleh AkhieNaim


Masih ada dalam kalangan umat Islam di negara ini yang berimamkan nafsu daripada berimamkan wahyu.


Saya teringat teks ucapan Dr. Abdul Hakim Murad bertajuk “Seeing With Both Eyes“, yang mana di dalam ucapan tersebut beliau menekankan bagaimana “mata satu Dajjal” itu adalah satu simbol (daripada sekarang lagi, sebelum Dajjal dizahirkan) bahawa orang yang sesat itu adalah orang yang gagal melihat setiap sesuatu itu dengan perspektif yang betul. Orang yang sesat itu juga adalah orang yang hanya mampu melihat satu aspek sahaja pada setiap perkara, dan mereka dibutakan atau sengaja membutakan diri daripada melihat aspek-aspek yang lain. Hal ini berlaku kerana mereka lebih berimamkan nafsu daripada berimamkan wahyu.

Ya, yang saya maksudkan di sini adalah mereka yang terlibat menjayakan himpunan BERSIH. Jika anda rasa hendak marah dan menuduh saya sebagai budak suruhan kerajaan, persilakan. Tetapi jika anda masih punya kewarasan dan mampu meletakkan rasionaliti dan kebenaran mengatasi emosi anda, teruskan membaca.

Mari kita baca beberapa analogi kecil untuk memahami apa yang saya maksudkan dengan “berimamkan nafsu daripada berimamkan wahyu”.

Kisah seorang budak remaja dengan bapa saudaranya. Si bapa saudara mempunyai hutang yang sudah lama tertunggak dengan jiran sebelah rumah. Pada satu hari, si bapa saudara melihat duit RM50 kepunyaan remaja tadi yang diletakkan di atas meja rumah. Si bapa saudara pun ambil duit itu, dengan harapan anak saudaranya akan memaafkannya, dan menggunakannya untuk membayar hutang jiran sebelahnya. Apabila si remaja itu mendapat tahu, dia pun mengamuk. Dia mencaci maki bapa saudaranya dan memecahkan segala perabot rumah.

Dalam kisah di atas, tindakan si bapa saudara itu salah. Tetapi persoalannya, adakah reaksi remaja itu betul?

Kalau ditanyakan kepada remaja itu, dia akan membetulkan tindakannya kerana bapa saudaranya yang terlebih dahulu mencuri. Maka, tindakan dia dianggap betul mengikut pandangan nafsunya.

Tapi jika ditanyakan kepada kita yang tidak terkesan secara emosi dengan perbuatan tersebut, maka kita akan faham bahawa dari segi adab dan hukum, tindakan remaja itu juga salah. Maka mengikut neraca wahyu, tindakannya salah.

Remaja di dalam cerita itu bertindak mengikut nafsu, bukan mengikut wahyu.

Mereka yang berhimpun di dalam perhimpunan BERSIH melakukan demikian kerana ingin protes dan menyampaikan mesej kepada “kerajaan yang zalim” (menurut mereka). Ya, mungkin sahaja di pihak pemimpin kerajaan banyak melakukan kesalahan-kesalahan. Tetapi, adakah berhimpun dan memprotes di jalanan itu tindakan yang betul? Jika dirasakan betul, adakah “betul” itu mengikut nafsu atau mengikut wahyu?

Bagi kita orang Islam, neraca pertimbangan tertinggi adalah al Qur’an dan al Hadith. Ada banyak ayat-ayat al Quran serta hadith Nabi sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam yang menceritakan tentang kepimpinan, kepengikutan, serta hubungan di antara pemimpin dan pengikut. Jangan pula kita terlalu mudah merasakan diri kita “alim” dan dengan mudahnya sudah boleh memahami “kehendak wahyu” dengan hanya membaca beberapa potong ayat al Qur’an dan Hadith. Cara terbaik untuk kita memahami “kehendak wahyu” daripada sekian banyak ayat al Qur’an dan Hadith adalah dengan melihat kepada contoh-contoh praktikal daripada para sahabat, para salafussoleh, serta para ‘ulama ‘amilin terdahulu yang merupakan pewaris Nabi sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam. Tidak ada dalam kalangan mereka yang membuat tunjuk perasaan di jalanan! Demonstrasi jalanan ini adalah perkara baru yang bukan asalnya daripada tradisi Islam, tetapi adalah merupakan manifestasi daripada sistem demokrasi.

Bila kita membuat keputusan atas timbangan nafsu dan bukannya wahyu, kita bersikap tidak adil. Kita marah bila ada pemimpin mencuri harta negara, tetapi kita buat-buat lupa bahawa kita kadang-kadang mencuri waktu bekerja dengan bermain Facebook. Kita marah macam kita ini hampir jadi malaikat bila pemimpin menunjukkan perangai yang tidak Islamik, tetapi kita lupa kadang-kadang kita merokok di hadapan kanak-kanak kecil.

Memang susah untuk berimamkan wahyu dan mengenepikan emosi, tetapi itulah “perjuangan” yang perlu kita selesaikan di peringkat individu.
Abdul Muntaqm Zulkipli
Naim Zulkipli, Ampang
019-8285019

Rohingya Muslims are being massacred! Why no one cares?


The Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassallam foretold of this situation in the End Times (now) were there will be much bloodshed!

The Last Hour will not come unless there is much bloodshed.227

Near the establishment of the Hour there will be much Al-Harj, and Al-Harj means killing…228

The day of Judgment will not come until people openly deny Allah.229

Great cities will be ruined, and it will be as if they had not existed the day before.230

Gains will be shared out only among the rich, with no benefit to the poor.231

People will indulge in homosexuality and lesbianism.232

There will be prevalence of open illegal intercourse.233

The Hour (Last Day) will not be established until murders will increase.234

End Times Kllings

Today we are witnessing the senseless killings of Rohingya Muslims of the Arakan State in Myanmar (Burma) where the Myanmar Army and Buddhist Monks led rampaging hordes massacre the helpless Rohingya Muslims without mercy!

The Rohingyas homes are bombed and burnt down by the Myanmar Army and Police. Rampaging Buddhist mobs are killing the unarmed Rohingyas as they please and Rohingya women are gang raped and then killed by these murderous Buddhists!

Rohingyas Killed

All these atrocities are taking place right now before our very eyes yet the world’s so called authorities are not doing anything to save them! ASEAN does not bother to even warn the Myanmar government to stop these killings and ethnic cleansing of the Rohngyas.

Malaysia needs to expel the Myanmar representatives from remaining here as they blatantly ignore all calls to show mercy to the plight of the suffering Rohingya Muslims.

Rohingya Homes burning

Myanmar must be stopped! The world needs to teach Yangon a lesson! The UN needs to move in and stop the bloodshed. Failing which then it should just disband. Just the same with ASEAN. Another useless body.

Not forgetting the OIC. Another bunch of losers. No spine in them. Just as what the Prophet said. That in the End Times his ummah will be as many as the froth upon the ocean waves. Weak and disunited. Powerless.

Click here to watch a video of the Buddhists Massacring of the helpless Rohingya Muslims.

Who is going to help them?

Donald Trump’s Presidency ~ How will it affect us Muslims?


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Well, for one thing, it brings to my mind the American Muslim Girl\’s Fears Donald Trump video after her post-wisdom tooth dental surgery’s trauma that Donald Trump @ the leader of the rednecks is going to kick her out and her dad’s reassuring her that no such thing is gonna happen!

Muslims in America are subject to rising cases of attacks against them due to Islamophobia. Many less informed and ignorant Americans unfortunately swallow hook, line and sinker whatever their equally ignorant and biased media channels show them hateful content portraying Muslims as the new evil that they must fight and get rid of like what they were shown about the communist Russians and the Japanese enemies to be their mortal enemies!

After the Americans defeated Nazi Germany and Japan in WW2, they came to view Islam and the Muslims as their new enemies and we cant totally blame them for thinking in such a way because there are certain groups of so called Muslims who ‘foam at the mouth and get into hysterics wanting to destroy America! as if that’s what our faith tells us to do! Just go to You Tube and watch this Anti-American Protest. It will give you an idea of what I mean?

You don’t to go far looking for such evidences because there are lots of videos n You Tube showing the crowds of deranged ‘Muslims’ burning the American flag and gong berserk at every rally and protest that some political groups or instigating politician stirs up every now and then to advance his cause and gain some political mileage for himself whilst turning the ignorant masses as his proverbial sacrificial goats!

Anti American protest

Instead of practicing true Islamic teachings, the majority of our fellow Muslims are sadly prone to just be those who are ‘Muslim’ in name only. How many of us are well versed with what Islam really is? Try asking your fellow Muslim around you to explain what Islam is and chances are that the average ‘Muslim’ will try to give an excuse that he or she is not a scholar and can’t.

Even amongst the so called scholars of Islam exists so many different ‘schools of thought’ brought about by their insistence that their’s is the only true form of Islam and others are deviant! The irony is that our beloved Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassallam came and taught us only One Creed @ Aqeedah but today you see so many forms and practices of Islam’.

So, when we are prone to fighting and quarreling amongst even ourselves, how can we expect people like Donald Trump and his supporters to know who we really are and why they came to this Anti-Islam and Anti-Muslim standpoint.

It’s all due to the fact that ignorance breeds foolhardiness and in today’s challenging and confusing times what is easily duped into thinking that he or she is right and all others are so damn wrong and ought to be destroyed! what a shame for even the one who is raging to destroy others will in the next second, minute, hour, day or week, month, year also cease to exist!

In these End Times, as Muslims must be steadfast in our faith. We must clearly know more about what we profess and strive to be as good a Muslim that we can be by practicing what we preach. We need to be street smart and know how best to go about safely when we are in areas where such Islamophobes are living.

Do not take for granted that you will be protected by the law enforcement authorities. Gujarat Muslims learnt the hard way for many Hindu policemen themselves massacred them. The Prophet foretold this sad situation of his Ummah in these Akhirul Zaman for we will be as large in numbers as the froth at the end of the ocean waves but powerless because we are in disarray. No unity. Constantly bickering and argumentative.

My advice ~ Be true Muslims. Not just a facade of what we imagine or pretend to be. May Allah guide us all. Ameen.

Hail the new addiction MO! by Dr. Afiza Azmee


Hail the new addiction MO!

by afizaazmee

God doesn’t give you what you ask for. What you want doesn’t simply materialise from the great blue sky.

Life doesn’t work that way, alas.

Instead, He gives you the means and the tools and the experience that you can make use of to attain what you want.

As I have mentioned before, I asked God for patience as I am fully aware that I am  lacking in the quality of patience. I am easy-going in mundane, daily matters. Mundane routine don’t flap don’t faze me or disturb my mood. I couldn’t care less about which restaurant serves what good dishes, I am not a hypercritical foodie. I eat anything and everything. (I am only particular about coffee. But not even the brands of coffee do I care. Just any good tasting coffee will do no matter what the brand is). I am not a fashionista. I am not brand-conscious. I wear whatever that is nice-looking and cheap. You don’t have to please me with expensive presents. When in doubt, just give me the latest book that has won an Orange Prize or a Pulitzer Prize or a Booker Prize.

I don’t get offended easily. I don’t have an opinion about food, clothes, houses, cars, the best way to clean or cook. I am not a fanatic fan of football/celebrities/dramas/movies. I can never understand how fights ever get started at the stadium. Just doesn’t make any sense to me. I am, however, a fanatic fan of books but it’s been a long time since I last got worked up about which book  is better than the other. I have accepted that people have different taste when it comes to books and authors that they like.

But when I feel some people have crossed certain boundaries, certain concepts of truth/justice/fairness (my version of it, at least) or certain universal principles that I think everyone should have, I cannot calm myself down. In such situations, I am adamant that things should go my way. My way of thinking is better. And if you refuse to see it and put the blame on me, manipulate me in anyway (or try to)… if you don’t immediately see that I was right (that I don’t insist you to go my way because it is MY way, but because it is the right way and the most just, the most righteous for everyone), then I get immediately upset.

You see, a beauty queen will be upset if people criticise her image.  A surgeon is defensive if people criticise how he approaches a certain surgery. A  designer is upset if people criticise her design. A singer would feel humiliated if people criticise her singing. A chef/a cook feels defensive if people suggest that there is a better way to cook rendang, for example. (Been to any gotong-royong memasak, recently? You will get what I mean about how sensitive and defensive a cook can be, it is so funny!)

I consider myself as a self-developed thinker and ethicist. I don’t defend only myself, but I also defend others, especially my patients, against stigma, against their bosses, against their tormentors (read: husbands). I have called up employers, I have called up husbands, I have called up instructors (pretending to ask for collaborative history but actually really just want to SUBTLY let them know that ‘hey I know what you are doing to my patient. She confides in me. I am on to you, now. You better be careful in how you proceed with my patient from now on. She is no longer alone in this. You better watch out’ Hahah. Contrary to the belief of my family members, I can really be sweetly harmful when I put my mind to it, as opposed to stormy harmful. The storm can come later if required. There is an art to subtle threat that I have learned in the past.) Sometimes, just doing the phone call is helpful…sometimes you need to follow-up on the phone call with a more assertive action. Once, I even offered to accompany my patient to lodge a police report against a particular member of her family… so that she won’t chicken out at the last minute as she always does (disappointing me each time). But she didn’t take up on my offer and I was left frustrated. Maybe I should be less over-involved to protect myself against this sort of frustration. Some people will never take the assertive action  that they should, it makes you want to pull your hair in distressed on their behalf. Maybe I should really learn to accept that some people just deserve the problem that they have.

There are risks I took without consulting my specialist because I know if I consult them, I might get a different management plan altogether that would not allow me to do what I want to do for my patients. It doesn’t happen always. Most of the time, management is pretty straightforward and we see eye to eye. But when it does happen, it makes me feel stressed.

(I think most MOs feel the same way, anyway. Many MOs take risks of doing something behind the specialist back because that’s what they want for the patient. I am not the only one. Many MOs in other departments also, if they are senior enough and if they feel bothered enough, would have learned how to manipulate the system to get what they feel their patients deserve. I bet, many specialist when they were an MO would have done something like that as well. So they really shouldn’t be upset if their MOs now do the same thing. It’s part of our learning process and that particular action of taking-risk would enrich your clinical experience and eventually serves you well as a specialist. We are no longer HOs who just follow mindlessly. Sometime we make mistakes and commit errors in clinical judgment but those experience must be gone through.  Sometimes we need the freedom to determine what we want for our patients, right? That is one way you can attain job satisfaction and self-actualisation in who you are as a doctor, who is inherently an agent of good and positive change for others. It gets frustrating if you can’t do something because your boss thinks differently from you. Sedangkan you yang tengok patient in the casualty and the clinic. You are the one who went for home visit. You are the first liner! Nothing you say to present the case would ever equal to the specialist seeing the case herself/himself. So you are the one who knows what your patient really needs. You have to fight for them. So, there are minor things you do for  your patients that you won’t consult with your boss if you know he/she won’t agree with you. Or you will manipulate the system in your own way, present things in a different way. I know which specialist will sign OKU form easily so that my patients can get a much needed welfare money, before some politicians can swindle the money away. I know which specialist will allow me to admit patients into the ward. If my patient needs expert counselling that I cannot deliver due to time constraints and lack-of-expertise,  I know which specialist will willingly takeover a difficult case if I consult the case with her. I know which specialist will deliver a good scolding to a patient who needs that scolding. If I don’t want to give something that a rude demanding patient insists for, I know which specialist will have the same line of thinking as I do and I will consult with that specialist so that I can tell the patient “Sorry, even my own specialist say no. See?” Haha. You know how it is…as a lowly ‘female MO’, sometimes I need a male consultant to deliver the same message effectively because some patients would only listen to males! So I have learned to call my male consultant to say exactly the same thing to this patient who keeps bothering me and my addiction SN. That shut him up for good! Haha. )

So, because I think of myself as a logician, a thinker and an ethicist, I get defensive if people criticise my logic and my ethical reasoning and how I want things to be done. Sorry…everyone is allowed to be upset about SOMETHING, right? Like the beauty queens, the designers, the surgeons, the singers and the chefs of this world. Depending on how you define yourself, you get defensive about those things.

I also pride myself of being an amateur linguist. I would probably be quite sensitive about anyone criticising my essay or my blog post. Once when I was in Form 5, I had argued with my English teacher when she criticised my English essay. (But I never, for example, argued with my Math teacher because heck, I knew I was bad in maths, so why would I get defensive about it, right?) My excuse for arguing with her was because she said my essay was plagiarised from a novel. I asked her, “which novel?”. She couldn’t name it, of course. Just because my essay was good with a different plot twist, doesn’t mean it was plagiarised from a novel, for God’s sake. (she hated that plot twist because there was a controversial element to it that she opposed to, being conservatively religious as she is, compared to me at that time. In my defense, I was just being creative. If she didn’t like that plot twist, she could just tell me so; rather than accusing me of plagiarising!) My sister was a novelist! My father wrote poems and quotes at the first page of all his text books when he was younger! My younger sister is a TESL teacher. My inclination towards language and literary creativity runs in the family!  Our whole family are great readers! We talk about books all the time and we compete with each other in coming up with great phrases all the time. So can you imagine how upset I became when I was accused of plagiarising a non-existent novel?? Such an unjust accusation, not supported by any evidence, directed towards my ability which I took most pride in. My God, I wanted to blow up! I called up my parents and told them what this teacher said to me. My father was very angry when he heard about it. I had no idea that he could be that upset over it, or else I wouldn’t have told  him.

For the record, my parents were never the sort who would fight my battle for me. Before this incident, they would always assume that I deserve whatever rare scolding I might get from teachers. If I got bad marks in any of my test, it must be because I did not study enough rather than because the teachers were bad at teaching. They have never confronted any of my teachers for anything…. until this! I was surprised when my mother and my elder sister came to MRSM Langkawi bringing a bag full of my previous essays and short stories that I had written in the past to show to the teacher that I have always written with the objective of being creative. That just because I introduced a plot twist that she may not like was not enough justification to accuse me of plagiarising. I tried to stop them from coming. But my father insisted and I felt so stressed that they wanted to come. It was so ironic. All these times, they never wanted to side with me when I feel I was unfairly scolded by my teacher. But when I didn’t want them to come, (because heck, I was already 17 and I could fight for myself) they insisted in coming! I didn’t know whether to feel touched or irritated. The teacher finally apologized to me after my mother and my sister went to see her. (I was not there when they confronted her because I had a Math test.) And I also apologized to my teacher because I knew how forceful my mother could be when she was feeling angry. I was thankful that it wasn’t my father who came. Or else, the situation would totally be out of control. And I learned from that experience that I should never tell my parents things that I could handle myself. Haha. (This sealed my fate as a very skeptical person towards authority, in general. I became even more skeptical after 2 years of housemanship. I swear I will never put myself in the position of needing any validation from an unjust authority ever again. I avoid authority because I never want to kiss their ass. I think of all authorities as having a tendency to abuse their power unless proven otherwise. I don’t know how I am going to cure this overvalued idea of mine… just knowing that I might not be thinking fairly doesn’t cure my tendency to feel exactly like that! I have met many nice people in the position of power, and I think of them as the exception rather than the norm. I guess, even I can be illogical at times.)

I also pride myself of being a good reader, so I was VERY DEFENSIVE when I first met the brilliant Miss A who interrogated me on my choice of reading which, I now admit, was not as sophisticated as her own choice of delicacies consisting of many notable classic literatures that I had never even heard of before our paths crossed. Compared to Miss A, I was a novice in reading. My defensive stance became meek when I realised I could actually learn from her.

Well, everyone has some stuff they get very sensitive about.

But whatever it is, no matter what I said to defend my temperament, it does not justify my lack of patience. Like Miss A had said, we should aspire to be the one with the bigger heart. Ignore minor annoyance, walk away from the source of your major irritation, and if you can’t ignore those things any longer, then educate people with kindness. Don’t snap!

Or perhaps, I have attained the age of maturity to have learned not to respond to anything and everything. Just walk away. (I feel more wise and matured just writing about this! Haha. But even now, I cannot imagine how I could have dealt the situation with my English teacher any better. I mean… even maturity and wisdom have a limit somewhere.)

So, having an excellent insight about my severe lack of patience, I plead to God to bestow on me some measure of patience. Make me nice, lol.

And He answered my prayer by making me into an Addiction Medical Officer.

Hahaha. Yeah. He gives me the tools and the experience I need to acquire patience. He doesn’t just arrange for me wake up one day and be Mother Teresa.

Addiction patients can be manipulative. Check.

They sometimes use religious concept out of context to justify their actions. Check

They don’t have baseline standard criteria that I demand in people around me. Check.

They tick all the boxes that would totally TRY my patience. And if patience is a sort of muscle that have remained atrophied all my life before, I am gonna get a lot of exercise these days, trust me! Haha.

So, wish me luck. Hopefully, I can become a nice person through this experience. Something good may come out of me having to deal with the population in which anti-social traits are prevalent.

After all, who am I to judge people? We never know how we will end our lives. Just because some people are not up to snuff now, doesn’t mean they will never change. Maybe the ongoing never-ending struggle that they have to face to overcome their addiction (although at times they fail in their struggle again and again) gives them one massive pahala jihad people like us don’t get.

You earn pahala through struggle, right? It is not the outcome/natijah that brings you the reward from Allah. It is your effort that counts. And with drug addicts, the effort is constant for the rest of their lives. And every time they fall from grace, fail in their struggle and then repent, they get pahala taubat each time.  Who knows, maybe some drug addicts are more beloved in the eyes of God, than us normal people who only go through life blindly and repetitively with no major struggle whatsoever.

A food for thought, huh?

So far, life as an addiction MO is nice. I get to stay in my own Addiction room at the back, that’s the best part. Even though anyone can use that room at anytime (it’s not like I am given an exclusive right to it by my HOD, unfortunately) but not many MOs go to that room anyway, because the room is quite isolated at the back of the clinic. So I have come to think of that room as mine. (I am quite possessive of that room, to be honest. Even though my name was not written on the door of that room, I really think of it as mine and would feel quite forlorn if some other MO sits in that room instead of me. Haha) The isolation space that the room provides is the best part…. a space for me to do my work and to think out loud while listening to my kind of music. It’s like a separate universe from the rest of the crowded chaos at the front.

Ah… peace and serenity! I could really get used to being an Addiction MO. Having my own room is sweet! Sweet, indeed! I love it. My patients love it. We can talk privately without background noises disturbing our conversation. No patients knocking on my door, asking “Lambat lagi ke, doctor?”, annoying me with their disturbance while I am talking to another patient.  I can focus on my patient in tranquility. They feel heard and satisfied. And I feel satisfied. That is the sort of environment conducive for proper consultation and disclosure.

That room at the back is also very conducive to turn me into a Miss-Nice-Girl. LOL.

So, that’s how it comes about that this ‘being nice’ business is not so hard these days. In fact, it is rewarding in its own way.

So, until next time, folks! I shall try to update once a month. Might be hard though with the exam looming near.

Until then, I remain, your humble blogger.

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Dr.Zakir Naik, the most effective Caller to Islam today!


He strikes fear in the hearts of those who seriously lack knowledge of their own professed faith or beliefs! Not one Kaffir @ Disbeliever in Allah has managed to defeat Dr.Zakir Naik when it comes to Comparative Religious Forum or Dialogue for he can simply roll off in a non stop reference to the Scriptures of Islam, Christianity, Judaism, Hinduism, Buddhism, Sikhism, etcetera like a field soldier operating a machine gun firing salvo after salvo of facts against his opponent till they lift up the proverbial white flag in surrender!

So many have tried but failed and many of them eventually embrace Islam after realizing their folly and because of his tremendous success in exposing the falsehood that these opponents to his highly successful Dakwah Mission all over the world has achieved, quite a number of such persons have resorted to calling him names and branded him as a firebrand extremist propagating terrorism!

Hehehehehe. Far from it! These fellows simply do not have it in them to face Dr.Zakir Abdul Karim Naik on equal footing and can’t counter his statements with valid proof or evidence.

The recent attacks carried out by some terrorists in Dhaka, Bangladesh where he was said to be admired and followed by a number of those terrorists exposes the fact that his critics simply lack common sense and logic in attributing such attacks to be his fault!

It’s simply ridiculous and utterly preposterous!

What can Dr.Zakir do if some jackass around the world who follows his noble efforts in calling people to Islam via the correct manners by which is enjoined in Islam goes on and commits atrocities on their own contrary to what Dr.Zakir calls for?

Can we go and prosecute this or that righteous person if some idiot who claim to be his students goes on and commits a crime without the teacher knowing about it or had anything to do with such a madness? What nonsense is this?

Over in India, there is a lunatic television host by the name of Arnab Goswami ranting about Dr.Zakir being a terrorist!

We all know that in these times, there will be those who seek to ride on someone else’s fame by accusing them of this or that but for this crazy newscaster to go about spewing lies about Dr.Zakir really is a case study for rabid insanity in the world of broadcasting!

Instead of studying their own scriptures, most of those who oppose Dr.Zakir Naik choose to do so blindly and do not possess the true knowledge that reveals the Truth that leads to Islam.

Click here to watch this video Zakir Naik reply to Arnab Goswami

and also Dr.Zakir Naik exposes Indian Media Malice

After the late Allahyarham Sheikh Ahmed Deedat, Dr.Zakir Naik is the world’s most effective Da’ee @ Caller to Islam today and no matter what his critics might say or accuse him of, we who are his fellow Da’ees know that all that is mere lies and fabrications against the current world’s foremost authority in Comparative Religion.

May Allah bless and safeguard Dr.Zakir Naik from all such liars! Ameen.

Attack on increased jurisdiction of Syariah courts unconstitutional and an affront to religious liberty by Azril Md.Amin


Published in The Malay Mail Online. June 1 — The Centre for Human Rights Research and Advocacy (CENTHRA) reads with deep concern the joint statement by the Joint Action Group for Gender Equality (JAG) with regards to the Private Member’s Bill tabled by YB Dato’ Seri Haji Abdul Hadi Awang, Member of Parliament for Marang seeking to amend the Syariah Courts (Criminal Jurisdiction) Act 1965 (Amended 1984) to enable the increase of punishments meted out by the Syariah courts (Increasing powers of Syariah Courts may lead to rights violations, MalaysiaKini, 31 May 2016).

We note that the joint statement contains several factually inaccurate assertions as well as downright false and misleading claims, not to mention baseless accusations regarding the proposed Bill in particular, as well as the administration of criminal justice by the Syariah judiciary in general, which we feel compelled to address as well as redress, if only to put in proper perspective the issues surrounding this debate, considering, to borrow the statement’s own words, the level of debate this has generated in the public sphere.

First of all, the implied claim by JAG that the tabling of the Private Members’ Bill was undemocratic, not transparent and should have been subjected to public consultation is unwarranted and illogical given that in a Westminster-based constitutional system such as ours, such a move is not practical given the time constrains involved. We remind JAG that the Bill is not based on any proposal or legislative programme but a Private Members’ Bill, and duly elected Members of Parliament are free to bring forth Bills before the chamber of the House they were elected to without subjecting the same to any consultation process, especially given that the prerogative of whether such Bills are approved for tabling lies with the Speaker of the House. In the United Kingdom House of Commons, for example, hundreds of Private Members’ Bills are presented for tabling for every session and if all such Bills were to require public consultation prior to their tabling then parliamentary business would never be finished. We believe that the confusion took place because such Private Members’ Bill was the first kind of its nature in the history of our Parliament.

Secondly, with respect to the so-called “Malaysian interpretation” and the absence of guarantees in the way Syariah-sanctioned whippings are administered in other countries, we point out that the Bill is tabled before the Parliament of Malaysia, and if passed would become law in Malaysia. As such, sheer logic alone necessarily entails that the “Malaysian interpretation” would most definitely apply, regardless of the practice in other countries, which has absolutely no bearing on this matter whatsoever. JAG has also failed to adduce any example or evidence where present Syariah laws have been applied in a discriminatory fashion leading to victimization.

Regarding the role of the state in enforcing the precepts of Islam, we again remind JAG that this is sanctioned by no less the Constitution itself, which by virtue of Article 4(1) thereof, is the nation’s highest law. Article 3(1) of the Constitution states that Islam is the religion of the Federation. This is to be read with Schedule 4 of the Constitution containing the oath of the Yang di-Pertuan Agong (YDPA) pursuant to Articles 32 and 37 thereof, which mandates that the YDPA must at all times protect the religion of Islam and uphold the rule of law. This reading is further fortified by the Herald’s Case [2013] 8 CLJ 890 which states that Article 3 is no mere declaration, but imposes a “positive obligation” on the Malaysian State to protect, defend and promote Islam and its injunctions by appropriate state action, which necessarily includes conferring already existing Syariah courts with the necessary jurisdiction to carry out the injunctions of Islam.

Lastly, JAG should be chastised for making more baseless claims that increasing punishment places a temporary bandage on open wounds, causes more societal harm in the long run and is not in accordance with the compassionate and merciful nature of Islam. It is trite that any criminal justice system, and not just one based on Islam, is meant to subject perpetrators of crimes to justice, and not just the restorative sort but also of the retributive as well as preventive kind as well. While we concede there are existing weaknesses in administration that may lead to abuse, it is submitted that this may be dealt with effectively by taking into account their presence with a view to rectifying the same, and not by simply doing away altogether with a criminal justice system based on Islam, which is the religion of the majority of the population, and more so one that has existed in this land since ancient times prior to the introduction of the British inspired civil criminal justice.

Indeed doing so would lead to degradation of human rights, and erode in particular the religious liberty of citizens professing the religion of Islam, which is specifically protected by Article 11(1) of the Constitution, and is wholly incompatible with the goal of upholding human rights in Malaysia.

Azril Mohd Amin

Azril Mohd Amin is a lawyer and Chief Executive of Centre for Human Rights Research and Advocacy (CENTHRA).

Logic and Religion by Dr.Afiza Azmee


Knowledge s Key-Nouman Ali Khan-Malaysia Tour 2015

Never have I ever been more interested in my religion until someone inspiring and oh, so logical, explains it the way Nouman Ali Khan explains it. He is the man! Haha. I think that if I had a religious teacher like Nouman Ali Khan growing up, I might be more invested in religion than I did before. And I personally also adore Dr. MAZA. He makes sense. It is important to people like me that our religious teachers and authority figures make sense and they get bonus mark if they are also efficient in their instructions to us.

We like people who make sense. In fact I would go so far as to say that I could love them. Truly, madly, deeply! Hahaha.

Okay, the You Tube video above is quite long. But the most important part(that I am going to talk about in this post) is explained by Nouman Ali Khan from minute 19:30 onwards. So if you are pressed for time, just srcoll until you reach that part…it was sooo enlightening and something I had been struggling with since I was an IB student in KMB when I first heard my naqibah in KMB told me “Kita kena buat semua benda niat kepada Allah. Baru dapat pahala. Kalau tak sia-sia kita buat.”

And all these time I kept thinking “Takkanlah hangpa semua belajar medic, berhempas pulas tak tidoq malam, langgah ayaq kopi bercawan-cawan PURELY for the sake of Allah? Mesti niat hangpa nak pass exam juga kan? I mean….come on! Get real here, please!”

(And knowing me, even though I can fake and pretend as good as the next person, but I am very self-aware about what I really feel and what I really think. Really, I can fake acceptance, liking, enjoyment, extraversion….I have learned how to do it. I just don’t like to do it constantly and consistently and therefore would limit the time I have to spend with people who make me feel like I have to pretend or suppress. And with most religious teachers or authority figures, I have gotten so used to suppressing my inner thoughts because when I voice them out, I feel like an alien. Tapi bila balik bilik sembang dengan kawan-kawan, semua orang pun sebenarnya pikiaq benda yang sama ja dengan aku. Exactly the same thoughts! They just didn’t have the need to point it out to their naqibah as much. But I did…so that was my problem!)

And sometimes the usrah mates will organize a ‘jalan-jalan’ around Australia which they term as ‘Jaulah’. They also told me that we should correct our intention and travel for the sake of Allah. So maybe, if we travel for the sake of Allah, we get pahala. And if we just say ‘kita jalan-jalan’ (instead of saying ‘jaulah’ with the right intention) then we only get the ‘dunya and not the akhirat’.

And deep inside, I was  thinking “Aku boleh nak guna term ‘jaulah’ untuk cakap yang aku nak pi jalan-jalan. But really, aku pi jalan-jalan sebab aku memang nak jalan-jalan lah! Susahlah aku nak pi kalih niat aku jadi for the sake of Allah pula. Pening weh!”

I had a friend who told me that when she first met her husband, she fell in love with him for the sake of Allah.
Aku macam skeptikal jugalah. In my mind, I went, “Hang dok whatsapp/message dia malam2 tu for the sake of Allah ke? Macam pelik jer. Hahah.”

When you say you smile to me for the sake of Allah, what do you mean? I don’t smile at people for the sake of Allah. I smile at people because I am genuinely happy to see them.
Does that make me a bad person? Not akhirat-oriented enough, maybe?

Then, I thought, I might be so dunya-oriented that I could not even pretend that I was doing everything for the sake of Allah. I was so conflicted by it that I actually wrote a blog post about it when I was a senior HO, reminiscing on my conflict of interest all my life with regards to my lack of PURE INTENTION.(cognitive dissonance, folks!) The post that I wrote then can be read H.E.R.E.

Reading back the post, I wish that I could have found the YOU TUBE video above sooner to soothe my conflicted confusion and my cognitive dissonance at that time. Really, we should stop making people feel guilty about their real intention. Just listen to the video from the minute 19:30 onwards! It’s such an eye opener that makes so much sense, I wanted  to weep with relief. You won’t regret the time spent! That video is a gem!

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This brings me to the topic of logic and religion.

I believe that religion should make sense. No, I am not talking about the matter of ‘perkara ghaib’ (jin/ syurga/neraka/israk mikraj/mukjizat).

But in matters of general principles and creed and jurisdiction, it MUST make sense. It MUST be fair and just. It MUST be justifiable through logic and dialogue. You MUST be able to reason it out! You MUST! Otherwise, it would create the sort of cognitive dissonance that would turn people away from the religion.

If a concept in the religion does not make sense, then there are usually a few reasons for it:

  1. Your own maturity and knowledge is lacking to be able to perceive the truth in it
  2. It was misrepresented by the ustaz/ustazah
  3. It was a fake hadeeth.
  4. It was an Isra’illiyyat story that has no basis in Islam.

And truly, religious people like to tell us that we are ‘reason number 1’ when we question them, rather than look at reason number 2, 3, and 4.

When I was in KMB doing my IB studies, another religious 2nd year senior told us the story of “Hassan Al-Basri Dan Wanita Cantik.” in a religious gathering. I am sure we are all familiar with that story. Let me simplify the story to jog your memory.

Hassan Al-Basri ternampak wanita cantik berpurdah berjalan-jalan di pasar. Terpesona dengan mata wanita itu. And keep following her around. Akhirnya wanita itu korek biji mata dia dan hadiahkan kepada Hassan Al-Basri. At last, wanita itu mati. (in other narration, wanita tu tak mati) Kononnya inilah wanita yang sangat warak kerana rasa bersalah kecantikan matanya menyebabkan lelaki tergoda. Lebih kurang macam tulah kisah dia. Pi google kalau nak tau lebih detail dan lanjut. Just type “kisah hassan al basri dan wanita cantik”.

When I heard the story, I squirmed in my seat, feeling sooooo ….angry!  Angry that I had to accept this story “because it is religious”. And also feeling guilty that I felt angry about this religious story. I questioned my iman for not accepting that story as religious. I went back to my room and ask my roommate the rational of the woman to korek biji mata dia and at last dia mati (?cause of death ?was it profuse bleeding? Garghh…I don’t know!).

I ranted to my roommate “Hello! Bukan salah dia lelaki tu suka kat mata dia. Dia dah berpurdah. Dia dah cover everything. Mata pun nak kena cover juga ka? Bila pula lelaki tu sendiri nak kena sedar diri nak tundukkan pandangan? Kenapa korbankan deria penglihatan kau…sampai kau mati pula tu…kau just nak prove a point ke apa ni? I just don’t get it! Awat perempuan tu buat macam tu?”

And on and on I went. (My INTP trait was showing. Once we latch on a topic that mystifies us, we just can not stop)

My roommate was well-versed with my habit of ranting out when things don’t make sense or illogical…pasrah ja dia mendengar. Hahaha.

When I went to Australia, I learned from another naqibah that that story is an Israilliyat.

Darn it, I knew it!!

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Another story that I struggled with (also in KMB, my goodness! KMB is number one IB school in the world during my time. We were the best! Tapi tengoklah….ada doktrin2 yang pelik2 kat situ)

Perempuan pertama yang masuk syurga sebelum anak kesayangan Nabi S.A.W, Siti Fatimah, ialah seorang isteri bernama Siti Mutiah yang sangat taat kepada suami sehinggakan dia akan sediakan makanan berserta rotan kepada suami dia. Kalau makanan sedap, it’s okay. Kalau makanan tak sedap, rotan itu akan dia serahkan kepada suami dia untuk pukul punggung dia. (Go and google Perempuan pertama yang masuk syurga bersama Siti Fatimah)

I actually struggled with myself SO BADLY about this story, that I wanted to kick something (or, rotan someone) Hahah. And guess what, it is a fake hadeeth. (Tip Religion 101: if things don’t make sense it’s a fake hadeeth or it’s Isra’illiyat. Remember this until your final breath!)

And you know what? That story contradicts with  hadis sahih about wanita pertama yang masuk syurga. Tak tersenarai langsung Siti Mutiah! Ada empat wanita pertama masuk syurga: Khadijah Khuwailid, Maryam Binti Imran, Asiyah (isteri Firaun), dan Siti Fatimah.

Mai mana Siti Mutiah??! Come on! Stress aku!

I know I may not look like I am so religiously knowledgeable. My dressing is not so alim kan? haha. But I read a lot!  Beyond medic, beyond fiction…I make myself read other things for the sake of a well-rounded knowledge. Benda yang aku tak puas hati, semua aku pi baca balik (when I am interested enough).

And I learn through multiple repeated experience, that religious concept MUST make sense. When it doesn’t make sense, something is fishy somewhere and you better find out before letting yourself be sucked into the delusion.

So aku sangat tak suka kisah-kisah yang konon ‘ada nilai-nilai murni’ tapi hangpa reka sampai orang boleh misinterpret and menyebabkan fitnah kepada agama. Can you imagine if the two stupid stories above were told to non-muslims? Wouldn’t our religion look bad in their eyes? And that is the reason why Nabi Muhammad S.A.W said very clearly:

“Siapa yang berdusta di atas namaku, hendaklah dia menyiapkan tempatnya di neraka”.

So, most people would just shrug their shoulders and said “Ala, ni kisah untuk pengajaran. Tak payahlah hang nak ambil pot sangat. No need to be so intense. Yang baik kita ambil. Yang buruk, kita tak payah ambil”.

Hahha. Inilah orang-orang yang akan menyebabkan aku lagi meluat. Personality clash habis! Aku pula  yang kau kata intense? Kau yang tak sensitif dengan penipuan menggunakan nama Nabi. Tempat kat neraka tu, tak payah nak intense ka? Aku bengang kot kena tipu macam tu! Macam mana kalau aku ni jenis lemah iman and terus question the authenticity of my religion because of these stories? Think about it! Do you think nabi saja-saja habaq yang berdusta atas nama dia masuk neraka? The impact of such stories is HUGE!

So really, I am not intense! You are the one who do not posses critical thinking and too blunted! Or maybe, you just don’t care enough to feel anything, anyway. Kan?

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You only bother to be intense about things that affect you directly; like your cheating husband, your naughty drug-addicted sons, your annoying parents and siblings. Your world revolves around them only, you are like a katak bawah tempurung who cannot venture beyond what you deal with daily…and you feel nothing about higher concept like truth, justice, fairness …well, until untruth, injustice and unfairness happen to you. Waktu tu baru you nak intense la kan? Because it affects you directly. When it doesn’t affect you, you just don’t care.

(And I really cannot stand this sort of shallowness in others. I can’t. This sort of people remain my acquaintance and can never be upgraded to close friends. Because we care about different things. And I guess, that’s okay, too. I mean, not everyone is the same. Some people are the diplomats of the society, some are the warriors of the society, some are the thinkers of the society, some are the feelers and empathizers of the society. And everyone is equally important. It’s just that, due to those differences, some people can never be ‘your people’. They are not meant to have a seat in your table. And you should just wave them along in their own journey and you continue with ‘your people’.)

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I do believe that the best presenter is someone who imagine himself/herself presenting to a hostile audience. Imagine me as your audience. Imagine the loudest, the most critical, the most intense person questioning you after your presentation.

And prepare your talk exactly for such audience. (Of course when it comes to religion, people like me have learned to suppress our logical thoughts from you. Takut kena label. But we do go back home and debate it out among friends, you know. At least, among my set of friends, we do that a lot.)

Have you ever watched a debate?

You have to prepare your talk with evidence and convincing arguments as though your audience will debate you out. Prepare your religious talk as though you are presenting it to a non-Muslim who does not have any obligation to sooth the tone of his/her skepticism about this religion! Only then, you would be able to know that your talk may not be up to snuff! At least, not to educated, professional people.

(I am not saying yang aku ni educated sangat, terer habis. No! But with the two stories above, it doesn’t take an educated people to feel uncomfortable about it. Not educated pun boleh fikir. Budak-budak pun boleh fikir yang this is weird. Talk to the kids who have such pure conscience and have not yet learned to suppress their thoughts for the sake of political correctness. They would say“Tapi mama, kenapa dia korek mata dia? Lepas tu dia mati lah, mama? Kesiannya dia…” So it’s not about your level of education yang menyebabkan kau boleh detect kepelikan dalam cerita macam ni. Just listen to your own conscience! Listen to it! Listen to your fitrah. Cumanya, orang yang educated lebih berasa ‘the urge’ untuk tanya kau balik. sebab diorang lebih konfiden. Kalau kau untung, dia mungkin tak malukan kau depan audience and ask you privately.)

When I was preparing for my departmental audit competition, I remember that my supervisor told me that I was over-thinking my points. “Afiza ni pikiaq banyak!”

I thought and re-thought my standard criteria over and over again like an obsessive freak. Why? Because I imagined a hostile jury and a hostile audience who would question my audit! Of course I did! It was a competition and I wanted to win. I prepared my audit report with hostile juries in mind.  Lucky me that my supervisor was so pateint and able to tolerate my neuroticism even though sometimes I was too argumentative with him and… yeah, intense. Hahaha.

And Alhamdulillah, we won the first place for that competition. They said that my report was complete and they had nothing much to ask and only wanted to clarify a few points. When I entered the HSA competition, again we won the first place.

So, prepare your work with a hostile audience in mind! This is especially important to religious leaders. We do not want to misrepresent our religion, do we?

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On a lighter note, someone told me “You marah sangat dengan cerita tu sebab you takut you kena rotan selalu ke setiap kali sediakan makanan?”

ROFL. Yeah, what a funny person!

I am not exactly a Masterchef. Really.

But I do cook at home. I just never bothered to tell people that I cook. Seriously, mana ada orang grad oversea tak pandai masak. Makanan halal mahal kot nak beli hari-hari. At least basic cooking tu pass lah. Hahah.

But I don’t feel the need to impress anyone with my cooking. Not even any prospective future husband I might or might not have. The best I have to offer to others is my thinking and my brain and my style of conversation which not many people with different wavelengths can adapt to. That’s the best I have about me. If you are not gonna be impressed about that, then nothing else about me will impress you and I have too much pride to even try to adjust myself for anyone. I don’t do that.

I am not willing to.

I know what I want in a friend and in a partner and in a conversationalist. Someone who thinks like I do and has values and principles that I have is what I want. Otherwise, you are just not ‘my people’. So, why bother to talk about cooking (unless you are the one doing it) when I am more interested about thinking (yours and mine)? My cooking is a bonus only. Not my duty! The task should be negotiable (or scheduled. Hahah)

When people ask me, do you cook? I said, no! I only eat. Haha.

A cook is not the noun for me.

A doctor is my noun in partial.

A reader and a knowledge-seeker. Those are my nouns in full.

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I have to be thankful for all those ‘perasaan tak puas hati’ that I felt towards so many religious figures in my life. They made me want to seek better and then I found more than I can ever dream of. I may not be a perfect Muslim but really, Islam is the best thing I have in my life when I know it in depth.

Every misconception I have about the religion appeared into my life for a reason. It made me wonder and dig deeper through all the dirts and end up finding the real gems in the ummah. Those like Nouman Ali Khan, Mufti Menk, Sheikh Eesa Niamatullah, Omar Suleiman, and Dr. MAZA. You would notice that most of them are not local. I just think that International speakers speak the same thing but with better logic and better analogy. Ironically, I found my better self when I was in Australia where Muslims were the minority. The culture of knowledge there is so so vastly different than in Malaysia. There is no problem for you to question your lecturer there.

In Malaysia, kau argue dengan lecturer or boss, kau memang saja menempah maut. (So, tu pasal aku anti-authority and avoid them.)

I leave my dear readers with a quote by Yasmin Mogahed. This lady has a way with words that speaks directly into my heart, and I hope yours as well.

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