We all know that the world’s more than a billion Muslims are not all so perfect or free from committing sins or mistakes just like every other human being here on Earth. Apart from the fact that we testify that ‘There is no God save for Almighty Allah and attesting that Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassallam is our Lord’s Final and Greatest Messenger to His Entire Creation, each of us lives and will eventually breathe our last when our time is up.
Each of us differs from one another by our social, cultural and economic status and live as we see fit or according to our own individual personal circumstances. The way we practice our faith depends on our own personal acquired knowledge and our level of commitment to what we profess or claim to be.
There are ups and downs in one’s level of Belief and our practices of Islam varies from time to time as we go about our daily lives. We are currently living in what has been described as the End of Time. The Last Ages. Akhirul Zaman. The Age of Fitnah. Age of Tribulations.
We have before us Science and Technology that would only be regarded as pure wizardry by those who lived and died before us if it was presented to them back then. Unimaginable inventions, devices, telecommunication capabilities available that emperors and kings would willingly pay handsomely to acquire if it was available back in the Dark Ages.
As Muslims we believe in the Creation of Our Father Sayyidina Adam Alaihis Salam by Almighty Allah Himself in the most perfect of form and imbued knowledge plus the Faculty of Reason by God Himself and do not subscribe to the Theory of Evolution conjured up by the likes of Charles Darwin and those like him.
We are all descendants of Prophet Adam Alaihis Salam and Our Mother Sayyidatina Hawwa Radhiallahu Anha and turned into different tribes returning to our Origin back to the essence from which the various parts of the earth was collected from this planet which was collected by Sayyidina Izra’il Alaihis Salam, one of the mightiest Angels @ Malaikats of Allah when Allah commanded him to do so in order to create Adam up there in the highest heavens.
The very significant attribute that differentiates us from the other Creation of Allah is that we have been given the Freedom of Choice and Willpower to choose what we wish to believe in and what we feel like doing at times without realizing the consequences of our actions but most of these times fully aware of the results but just don’t bother or care of its ramifications!
There are times when we just don’t even fear God even though we know that He is Most Aware and not a jot escapes His Knowledge as well as the monitoring of us by Allah’s Malaikats @ Angels. Some say ‘So What?’ and continue with their desires and urges disregarding any pleas or cries for mercy!
It is true that we can be the ‘Best of Allah’s Creations and also the Worst! Even animals won’t do what quite a large number of human beings are doing to each other! Even to this very second, there are billions of innocent victims out there suffering as a result of human wickedness and barbarity! Regardless of their social standings or position in life! I coined a phrase before that ‘Even Alims @ The Knowledgeable Ones can turn into Zalims @ the Evil Doers’!
After Adam Alaihis Salam came a myriad of 124,000 Prophets and Messengers from Allah to continue guiding Mankind back to the Fitrah @ Nature of submitting to Allah’s Will and Commandments. There was scripture after scripture revealed to Mankind to believe in Allah and live as per His Commands but verily Mankind is a stubborn lot.
There are those amongst us who are recalcitrants and continue to wreak havoc amongst our fellow Mankind what more against the helpless other Creations of Allah who are powerless or ill equipped to face up to the onslaught of some human’s penchant for indulging in utter vice, debauchery and willful savagery!
In the shocking video above, some brave documentary makers have exposed the shocking reality of pedophilia that is ravaging the lives and future of hundreds of thousands of innocent young boys who despite being born and raised in a supposedly Muslim country!
These !@#$%^& Laknatullah’s @ Cursed by Allah are destroying over half a million and more innocent young Muslim children by committing these dastardly and forbidden acts of sodomy of street living homeless boys as young as 7 years old and the so called Islamic Government of Pakistan choose to ignore their plight and have not taken action against the pedophiles rampaging all over their major cities of Peshawar, Rawalpindi and Karachi not forgetting the entire country that shamelessly puts up an Islamic front as its national symbol.
What’s the point of trumpeting to the entire world that they are a nuclear powered formidable country if they can’t even defend and protect the honor and dignity or innocence of their very own young citizens such as the boys featured in the documentary above?
Too busy fighting against the fictitious or self created enemies of Islam and ‘Pakistan Zindabad‘ when your own pedophiles are sodomizing your future heirs to an early death! What the bloody hell is wrong with you??? Where are your damn priorities?
What kind of Muslims are you when despite knowing that Sodomy and Homosexuality is HARAM in Islam, you conveniently choose to CLOSE BOTH EYES and CHOOSE NOT TO SEE or bother to nip all these savagery in the bud?
Where there’s a will definitely there will be a way to stop and eradicate all these nonsense!
It’s all up to you.
Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassallam himself warned against allowing this abominable act to prevail amongst his ummah yet to this very second or moment hundreds if not thousands of young boys are being raped at will by the bus drivers and truckers over there in Pakistan!
Not to say that this does not happen elsewhere or even here in Malaysia where I live but not to this extent over there in Pakistan where in the documentary it proved that social welfare officers have found that 9 out of 10 interviewed homeless street children said that they have been raped almost daily with no one coming to their aid!
People can scream and shout in protest all they want worldwide but if no real action is taken to stop these child abuses right there in Pakistan and worldwide, it will continue to fester and destroy the lives of these victims.
I implore those authorities in Pakistan if they come to read this to repent and stop this evil from continuing to smear and destroy the country’s reputation. Please stop the rot!
Haji Azril Mohd Amin, Ketua Eksekutif, CENTHRA menjemput semua ke acara ‘Pray 4 Rohingya’ yang akan berlangsung di Masjid Tuanku Mizan Zainall Abidin, pada Ahad ini, 18hb. Disember, 2016.
Sila sebarkan. Terimakasih.
In the name of Allah, Most Compassionate, Most Merciful.
We are living in what is termed to be ‘the Last Ages’. The Final and Greatest Messenger of Allah the Almighty, the Beloved Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassallam has left us 1,384 years ago.
Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassalllam, the Mercy of Allah for all Creation lived an exemplary life and delivered to us, the Final and Last Testament of Allah which is known as the Al-Qur’an for us to use as a Guide for living Life here as a human being, all aware and subservient to Allah, our Supreme Creator..
We are enjoined by Allah the Almighty to share the Truth of Al-Islam with all our fellow human beings in ways that are best and most gracious.
In Surah An-Nahl Chapter 16 verse 125, Allah commands us to ‘Invite all to the Way of Thy Lord in ways that are best and most gracious.
We all need to remember that Islam is the only revealed faith from Allah the Almighty. All others are invented or imagined by the Kaffirs @ Disbelievers.
Our Father, the Prophet Adam Alaihis Salam was created by Allahu Ta’ala up there in the highest Paradise by Allahu Ta’ala Himself, complete and perfect in form and taught by Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta’ala about who he (Adam) was and also of Adam’s duty to worship Allah, the Supreme Creator.
It would be ridiculous for Almighty God to create a human being and then to leave him (Mankind) without Knowledge or Guidance as to how to live life, first there in the Gardens of Jannahtul Firdaus and then here on Earth after he was ordered to descend to Earth from where his origins were sourced.
Adam was created by Allah from earth that was successfully collected only and exclusively by the Malaikat @ Angel ~ Sayyidina Izra’il Alaihis Salam whereas all other malaikats @ angels failed.
No matter what ethnicity we now belong to or what our skin color is, we are all from Adam Alaihis Salam and our Mother Sayyidatina Hawwa Radhiallahu Anha.
Indeed, the religion in the sight of Allah is Islam. And those who were given the Scripture did not differ except after knowledge had come to them – out of jealous animosity between themselves. And whoever disbelieves in the verses of Allah , then indeed, Allah is swift in [taking] account.
“…Truly my Lord is with me, He will Guide me through.”(Q26:62)
At the uni’s library..taking continuous steps (2006-2016)..1st degree 2nd degree & now its the final degree Alhamdulillah
The police have also reminded numerously, should Maria Chin and Bersih 5.0 are adamant to go ahead on their targeted date 19 November to hold their gathering in Dataran Merdeka without the PAA’s requirement, then they should realised that they did not meet legal provisions and hence violated the stipulated Act. Tell us which part that these so called law experts and law abiding people in Bersih 2.0 steering committee are unable to understand?
Therefore, Bersih 5.0 rally is illegal. So when Maria Chin is detained under the Security Offences (Special Measures) Act 2012 or SOSMA, why the need to dispute it?
As stated clearly that Bersih 5 is an illegal rally, the green light from Maria Chin and her steering committee to proceed is thus encouraging to go against in maintaining public order and the people safety. The police is correct to carry out instructions to stop illegal Bersih 5 rally when it is obvious detrimental to the security of our nation.
Should any opposition leaders questioned PM Najib’s assurance that SOSMA will not be affecting on politicians, they ought to proof that Maria Chin have held any position in any political party, then SOSMA should not be imposed on he her. If Maria Chin is merely a political instrument, as chairman of an NGO that has violated the laws that have threatened the public order, then SOSMA is very appropriate and she is a threat to our nations’ security.
If the oppositions needed to be reminded that Maria is chairing an illegal rally “which is prejudical to public order in, or the security of, the Federation or any part thereof ;”. Her detention is thus necessary to stop action as stipulated in SOSMA when she has initiated “to procure the alteration, otherwise than by lawful means, of anything by law established”.
As a seasoned political watchdog, Ambiga should have extensive legal knowledge affecting illegal assembly that the police in no way are liable to facilitate them and what more to ensure participants safety. But her statement to demand for the police presence is as though very obligated, not only that she is misleading public opinion but in fact she is inviting the police too to be unlawful.
What Ambiga should have done as a former chairman for Bersih 2.0 steering committee is to advise Maria Chin and her people to fully comply with the Peaceful Assembly Act (PAA) procedures and abide by rules and regulations as stipulated under the PAA. Instead she has chosen to incite to condemn the police that they are denying the illegal Bersih 5 rally rights to a peaceful assembly. Is Ambiga a truthful and an apt watchdog?
The keywords to Maria’s SOSMA detention are ‘agreeing and allowing’ to be manipulated by certain opposition leaders as a coup instrument. Unless Maria and her Bersih activities detached themselves from these group of usupers, their demands may stay applicable.
She needs no one to blame except the unscrupulous politicians and in particular Dr Mahathir and Kit Siang for ill-advising her. The vigil in solidarity with her is not enough to correct the situation as Maria has to be on her own to face charges for all the wrong reasons to satisfy those villainous opposition leaders. But… you asked for it Maria!
To many betrayed Muslim voters, MCA is more ignorant that DAP. While the latter enjoyed undivided support of Chinese community in Malaysia, MCA latest political miscalculation on Syariah issue that touches the nerve of every Muslim and makes Muslim give undivided support irrespective of their political ideologies means one thing- MCA can no longer enjoyed the immunity of being categorised as Muslim friendly ” kafir zimmi.”
Thus today MCA is at par with DAP, kaffir harbi
For DAP, no matter what may be the outcome of RUU 355 today, they have the undivided support of the Chinese community. Hence DAP can steadily brace for next election and still win handsomely from the Chinese community.
Contrarily for MCA,who have been borrowing political lifeline from Muslim population/voters , this means the demise of MCA in the next General Election
I do hope PM strategists read the outcome of today’s event and be prepared for one thing- Please be smart and do not field MCA candidates or BN will lose miserably in next GE.
Masih ada dalam kalangan umat Islam di negara ini yang berimamkan nafsu daripada berimamkan wahyu.
The Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassallam foretold of this situation in the End Times (now) were there will be much bloodshed!
The Last Hour will not come unless there is much bloodshed.227
Near the establishment of the Hour there will be much Al-Harj, and Al-Harj means killing…228
The day of Judgment will not come until people openly deny Allah.229
Great cities will be ruined, and it will be as if they had not existed the day before.230
Gains will be shared out only among the rich, with no benefit to the poor.231
People will indulge in homosexuality and lesbianism.232
There will be prevalence of open illegal intercourse.233
The Hour (Last Day) will not be established until murders will increase.234
Today we are witnessing the senseless killings of Rohingya Muslims of the Arakan State in Myanmar (Burma) where the Myanmar Army and Buddhist Monks led rampaging hordes massacre the helpless Rohingya Muslims without mercy!
The Rohingyas homes are bombed and burnt down by the Myanmar Army and Police. Rampaging Buddhist mobs are killing the unarmed Rohingyas as they please and Rohingya women are gang raped and then killed by these murderous Buddhists!
All these atrocities are taking place right now before our very eyes yet the world’s so called authorities are not doing anything to save them! ASEAN does not bother to even warn the Myanmar government to stop these killings and ethnic cleansing of the Rohngyas.
Malaysia needs to expel the Myanmar representatives from remaining here as they blatantly ignore all calls to show mercy to the plight of the suffering Rohingya Muslims.
Myanmar must be stopped! The world needs to teach Yangon a lesson! The UN needs to move in and stop the bloodshed. Failing which then it should just disband. Just the same with ASEAN. Another useless body.
Not forgetting the OIC. Another bunch of losers. No spine in them. Just as what the Prophet said. That in the End Times his ummah will be as many as the froth upon the ocean waves. Weak and disunited. Powerless.
Click here to watch a video of the Buddhists Massacring of the helpless Rohingya Muslims.
Who is going to help them?
Well, for one thing, it brings to my mind the American Muslim Girl\’s Fears Donald Trump video after her post-wisdom tooth dental surgery’s trauma that Donald Trump @ the leader of the rednecks is going to kick her out and her dad’s reassuring her that no such thing is gonna happen!
Muslims in America are subject to rising cases of attacks against them due to Islamophobia. Many less informed and ignorant Americans unfortunately swallow hook, line and sinker whatever their equally ignorant and biased media channels show them hateful content portraying Muslims as the new evil that they must fight and get rid of like what they were shown about the communist Russians and the Japanese enemies to be their mortal enemies!
After the Americans defeated Nazi Germany and Japan in WW2, they came to view Islam and the Muslims as their new enemies and we cant totally blame them for thinking in such a way because there are certain groups of so called Muslims who ‘foam at the mouth and get into hysterics wanting to destroy America! as if that’s what our faith tells us to do! Just go to You Tube and watch this Anti-American Protest. It will give you an idea of what I mean?
You don’t to go far looking for such evidences because there are lots of videos n You Tube showing the crowds of deranged ‘Muslims’ burning the American flag and gong berserk at every rally and protest that some political groups or instigating politician stirs up every now and then to advance his cause and gain some political mileage for himself whilst turning the ignorant masses as his proverbial sacrificial goats!
Instead of practicing true Islamic teachings, the majority of our fellow Muslims are sadly prone to just be those who are ‘Muslim’ in name only. How many of us are well versed with what Islam really is? Try asking your fellow Muslim around you to explain what Islam is and chances are that the average ‘Muslim’ will try to give an excuse that he or she is not a scholar and can’t.
Even amongst the so called scholars of Islam exists so many different ‘schools of thought’ brought about by their insistence that their’s is the only true form of Islam and others are deviant! The irony is that our beloved Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassallam came and taught us only One Creed @ Aqeedah but today you see so many forms and practices of Islam’.
So, when we are prone to fighting and quarreling amongst even ourselves, how can we expect people like Donald Trump and his supporters to know who we really are and why they came to this Anti-Islam and Anti-Muslim standpoint.
It’s all due to the fact that ignorance breeds foolhardiness and in today’s challenging and confusing times what is easily duped into thinking that he or she is right and all others are so damn wrong and ought to be destroyed! what a shame for even the one who is raging to destroy others will in the next second, minute, hour, day or week, month, year also cease to exist!
In these End Times, as Muslims must be steadfast in our faith. We must clearly know more about what we profess and strive to be as good a Muslim that we can be by practicing what we preach. We need to be street smart and know how best to go about safely when we are in areas where such Islamophobes are living.
Do not take for granted that you will be protected by the law enforcement authorities. Gujarat Muslims learnt the hard way for many Hindu policemen themselves massacred them. The Prophet foretold this sad situation of his Ummah in these Akhirul Zaman for we will be as large in numbers as the froth at the end of the ocean waves but powerless because we are in disarray. No unity. Constantly bickering and argumentative.
My advice ~ Be true Muslims. Not just a facade of what we imagine or pretend to be. May Allah guide us all. Ameen.
God doesn’t give you what you ask for. What you want doesn’t simply materialise from the great blue sky.
Life doesn’t work that way, alas.
Instead, He gives you the means and the tools and the experience that you can make use of to attain what you want.
As I have mentioned before, I asked God for patience as I am fully aware that I am lacking in the quality of patience. I am easy-going in mundane, daily matters. Mundane routine don’t flap don’t faze me or disturb my mood. I couldn’t care less about which restaurant serves what good dishes, I am not a hypercritical foodie. I eat anything and everything. (I am only particular about coffee. But not even the brands of coffee do I care. Just any good tasting coffee will do no matter what the brand is). I am not a fashionista. I am not brand-conscious. I wear whatever that is nice-looking and cheap. You don’t have to please me with expensive presents. When in doubt, just give me the latest book that has won an Orange Prize or a Pulitzer Prize or a Booker Prize.
I don’t get offended easily. I don’t have an opinion about food, clothes, houses, cars, the best way to clean or cook. I am not a fanatic fan of football/celebrities/dramas/movies. I can never understand how fights ever get started at the stadium. Just doesn’t make any sense to me. I am, however, a fanatic fan of books but it’s been a long time since I last got worked up about which book is better than the other. I have accepted that people have different taste when it comes to books and authors that they like.
But when I feel some people have crossed certain boundaries, certain concepts of truth/justice/fairness (my version of it, at least) or certain universal principles that I think everyone should have, I cannot calm myself down. In such situations, I am adamant that things should go my way. My way of thinking is better. And if you refuse to see it and put the blame on me, manipulate me in anyway (or try to)… if you don’t immediately see that I was right (that I don’t insist you to go my way because it is MY way, but because it is the right way and the most just, the most righteous for everyone), then I get immediately upset.
You see, a beauty queen will be upset if people criticise her image. A surgeon is defensive if people criticise how he approaches a certain surgery. A designer is upset if people criticise her design. A singer would feel humiliated if people criticise her singing. A chef/a cook feels defensive if people suggest that there is a better way to cook rendang, for example. (Been to any gotong-royong memasak, recently? You will get what I mean about how sensitive and defensive a cook can be, it is so funny!)
I consider myself as a self-developed thinker and ethicist. I don’t defend only myself, but I also defend others, especially my patients, against stigma, against their bosses, against their tormentors (read: husbands). I have called up employers, I have called up husbands, I have called up instructors (pretending to ask for collaborative history but actually really just want to SUBTLY let them know that ‘hey I know what you are doing to my patient. She confides in me. I am on to you, now. You better be careful in how you proceed with my patient from now on. She is no longer alone in this. You better watch out’ Hahah. Contrary to the belief of my family members, I can really be sweetly harmful when I put my mind to it, as opposed to stormy harmful. The storm can come later if required. There is an art to subtle threat that I have learned in the past.) Sometimes, just doing the phone call is helpful…sometimes you need to follow-up on the phone call with a more assertive action. Once, I even offered to accompany my patient to lodge a police report against a particular member of her family… so that she won’t chicken out at the last minute as she always does (disappointing me each time). But she didn’t take up on my offer and I was left frustrated. Maybe I should be less over-involved to protect myself against this sort of frustration. Some people will never take the assertive action that they should, it makes you want to pull your hair in distressed on their behalf. Maybe I should really learn to accept that some people just deserve the problem that they have.
There are risks I took without consulting my specialist because I know if I consult them, I might get a different management plan altogether that would not allow me to do what I want to do for my patients. It doesn’t happen always. Most of the time, management is pretty straightforward and we see eye to eye. But when it does happen, it makes me feel stressed.
(I think most MOs feel the same way, anyway. Many MOs take risks of doing something behind the specialist back because that’s what they want for the patient. I am not the only one. Many MOs in other departments also, if they are senior enough and if they feel bothered enough, would have learned how to manipulate the system to get what they feel their patients deserve. I bet, many specialist when they were an MO would have done something like that as well. So they really shouldn’t be upset if their MOs now do the same thing. It’s part of our learning process and that particular action of taking-risk would enrich your clinical experience and eventually serves you well as a specialist. We are no longer HOs who just follow mindlessly. Sometime we make mistakes and commit errors in clinical judgment but those experience must be gone through. Sometimes we need the freedom to determine what we want for our patients, right? That is one way you can attain job satisfaction and self-actualisation in who you are as a doctor, who is inherently an agent of good and positive change for others. It gets frustrating if you can’t do something because your boss thinks differently from you. Sedangkan you yang tengok patient in the casualty and the clinic. You are the one who went for home visit. You are the first liner! Nothing you say to present the case would ever equal to the specialist seeing the case herself/himself. So you are the one who knows what your patient really needs. You have to fight for them. So, there are minor things you do for your patients that you won’t consult with your boss if you know he/she won’t agree with you. Or you will manipulate the system in your own way, present things in a different way. I know which specialist will sign OKU form easily so that my patients can get a much needed welfare money, before some politicians can swindle the money away. I know which specialist will allow me to admit patients into the ward. If my patient needs expert counselling that I cannot deliver due to time constraints and lack-of-expertise, I know which specialist will willingly takeover a difficult case if I consult the case with her. I know which specialist will deliver a good scolding to a patient who needs that scolding. If I don’t want to give something that a rude demanding patient insists for, I know which specialist will have the same line of thinking as I do and I will consult with that specialist so that I can tell the patient “Sorry, even my own specialist say no. See?” Haha. You know how it is…as a lowly ‘female MO’, sometimes I need a male consultant to deliver the same message effectively because some patients would only listen to males! So I have learned to call my male consultant to say exactly the same thing to this patient who keeps bothering me and my addiction SN. That shut him up for good! Haha. )
So, because I think of myself as a logician, a thinker and an ethicist, I get defensive if people criticise my logic and my ethical reasoning and how I want things to be done. Sorry…everyone is allowed to be upset about SOMETHING, right? Like the beauty queens, the designers, the surgeons, the singers and the chefs of this world. Depending on how you define yourself, you get defensive about those things.
I also pride myself of being an amateur linguist. I would probably be quite sensitive about anyone criticising my essay or my blog post. Once when I was in Form 5, I had argued with my English teacher when she criticised my English essay. (But I never, for example, argued with my Math teacher because heck, I knew I was bad in maths, so why would I get defensive about it, right?) My excuse for arguing with her was because she said my essay was plagiarised from a novel. I asked her, “which novel?”. She couldn’t name it, of course. Just because my essay was good with a different plot twist, doesn’t mean it was plagiarised from a novel, for God’s sake. (she hated that plot twist because there was a controversial element to it that she opposed to, being conservatively religious as she is, compared to me at that time. In my defense, I was just being creative. If she didn’t like that plot twist, she could just tell me so; rather than accusing me of plagiarising!) My sister was a novelist! My father wrote poems and quotes at the first page of all his text books when he was younger! My younger sister is a TESL teacher. My inclination towards language and literary creativity runs in the family! Our whole family are great readers! We talk about books all the time and we compete with each other in coming up with great phrases all the time. So can you imagine how upset I became when I was accused of plagiarising a non-existent novel?? Such an unjust accusation, not supported by any evidence, directed towards my ability which I took most pride in. My God, I wanted to blow up! I called up my parents and told them what this teacher said to me. My father was very angry when he heard about it. I had no idea that he could be that upset over it, or else I wouldn’t have told him.
For the record, my parents were never the sort who would fight my battle for me. Before this incident, they would always assume that I deserve whatever rare scolding I might get from teachers. If I got bad marks in any of my test, it must be because I did not study enough rather than because the teachers were bad at teaching. They have never confronted any of my teachers for anything…. until this! I was surprised when my mother and my elder sister came to MRSM Langkawi bringing a bag full of my previous essays and short stories that I had written in the past to show to the teacher that I have always written with the objective of being creative. That just because I introduced a plot twist that she may not like was not enough justification to accuse me of plagiarising. I tried to stop them from coming. But my father insisted and I felt so stressed that they wanted to come. It was so ironic. All these times, they never wanted to side with me when I feel I was unfairly scolded by my teacher. But when I didn’t want them to come, (because heck, I was already 17 and I could fight for myself) they insisted in coming! I didn’t know whether to feel touched or irritated. The teacher finally apologized to me after my mother and my sister went to see her. (I was not there when they confronted her because I had a Math test.) And I also apologized to my teacher because I knew how forceful my mother could be when she was feeling angry. I was thankful that it wasn’t my father who came. Or else, the situation would totally be out of control. And I learned from that experience that I should never tell my parents things that I could handle myself. Haha. (This sealed my fate as a very skeptical person towards authority, in general. I became even more skeptical after 2 years of housemanship. I swear I will never put myself in the position of needing any validation from an unjust authority ever again. I avoid authority because I never want to kiss their ass. I think of all authorities as having a tendency to abuse their power unless proven otherwise. I don’t know how I am going to cure this overvalued idea of mine… just knowing that I might not be thinking fairly doesn’t cure my tendency to feel exactly like that! I have met many nice people in the position of power, and I think of them as the exception rather than the norm. I guess, even I can be illogical at times.)
I also pride myself of being a good reader, so I was VERY DEFENSIVE when I first met the brilliant Miss A who interrogated me on my choice of reading which, I now admit, was not as sophisticated as her own choice of delicacies consisting of many notable classic literatures that I had never even heard of before our paths crossed. Compared to Miss A, I was a novice in reading. My defensive stance became meek when I realised I could actually learn from her.
Well, everyone has some stuff they get very sensitive about.
But whatever it is, no matter what I said to defend my temperament, it does not justify my lack of patience. Like Miss A had said, we should aspire to be the one with the bigger heart. Ignore minor annoyance, walk away from the source of your major irritation, and if you can’t ignore those things any longer, then educate people with kindness. Don’t snap!
Or perhaps, I have attained the age of maturity to have learned not to respond to anything and everything. Just walk away. (I feel more wise and matured just writing about this! Haha. But even now, I cannot imagine how I could have dealt the situation with my English teacher any better. I mean… even maturity and wisdom have a limit somewhere.)
So, having an excellent insight about my severe lack of patience, I plead to God to bestow on me some measure of patience. Make me nice, lol.
And He answered my prayer by making me into an Addiction Medical Officer.
Hahaha. Yeah. He gives me the tools and the experience I need to acquire patience. He doesn’t just arrange for me wake up one day and be Mother Teresa.
Addiction patients can be manipulative. Check.
They sometimes use religious concept out of context to justify their actions. Check
They don’t have baseline standard criteria that I demand in people around me. Check.
They tick all the boxes that would totally TRY my patience. And if patience is a sort of muscle that have remained atrophied all my life before, I am gonna get a lot of exercise these days, trust me! Haha.
So, wish me luck. Hopefully, I can become a nice person through this experience. Something good may come out of me having to deal with the population in which anti-social traits are prevalent.
After all, who am I to judge people? We never know how we will end our lives. Just because some people are not up to snuff now, doesn’t mean they will never change. Maybe the ongoing never-ending struggle that they have to face to overcome their addiction (although at times they fail in their struggle again and again) gives them one massive pahala jihad people like us don’t get.
You earn pahala through struggle, right? It is not the outcome/natijah that brings you the reward from Allah. It is your effort that counts. And with drug addicts, the effort is constant for the rest of their lives. And every time they fall from grace, fail in their struggle and then repent, they get pahala taubat each time. Who knows, maybe some drug addicts are more beloved in the eyes of God, than us normal people who only go through life blindly and repetitively with no major struggle whatsoever.
A food for thought, huh?
So far, life as an addiction MO is nice. I get to stay in my own Addiction room at the back, that’s the best part. Even though anyone can use that room at anytime (it’s not like I am given an exclusive right to it by my HOD, unfortunately) but not many MOs go to that room anyway, because the room is quite isolated at the back of the clinic. So I have come to think of that room as mine. (I am quite possessive of that room, to be honest. Even though my name was not written on the door of that room, I really think of it as mine and would feel quite forlorn if some other MO sits in that room instead of me. Haha) The isolation space that the room provides is the best part…. a space for me to do my work and to think out loud while listening to my kind of music. It’s like a separate universe from the rest of the crowded chaos at the front.
Ah… peace and serenity! I could really get used to being an Addiction MO. Having my own room is sweet! Sweet, indeed! I love it. My patients love it. We can talk privately without background noises disturbing our conversation. No patients knocking on my door, asking “Lambat lagi ke, doctor?”, annoying me with their disturbance while I am talking to another patient. I can focus on my patient in tranquility. They feel heard and satisfied. And I feel satisfied. That is the sort of environment conducive for proper consultation and disclosure.
That room at the back is also very conducive to turn me into a Miss-Nice-Girl. LOL.
So, that’s how it comes about that this ‘being nice’ business is not so hard these days. In fact, it is rewarding in its own way.
So, until next time, folks! I shall try to update once a month. Might be hard though with the exam looming near.
Until then, I remain, your humble blogger.