Sharing my final musings in my final months in Universiti Putra Malaysia (2006-2016).
Someone asked me: How do you feel after you have converted to Islam? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel after you have been deprived of your rights? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel being thrown into the middle of the ocean? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel being pushed down from a 24 story building? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel when you are left on your own searching for the meaning of life and quest for knowledge? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel being an immigrant? I answered: I feel free.
Then the person said: But why my friend???
Aren’t you feeling, depressed, frustrated, hurtful and fearful???
I really really don’t understand you!!! Do you still want to be a Muslimah?
What about your children, aren’t they a load?
See what Islam has done to you? Are you really happy?Can you please tell me why before your studying months end???
Finally I just smiled and answered: Of course I am deeply hurt, no one can deny it as I am a normal person but I really really feel the freedom through submitting to God.
Yes, of course, I still want to be a Muslimah and I am still learning to feel the serenity, strength and beauty of freedom living in God’s realm because Islam has set me free…
The Quran is my life-jacket, the Prophet and his companions are my inspiration; my children are my lighthouse and of course, I am happy.
I am the happiest Mommy in the world and you, my dear friend, you will understand me the moment you feel what true freedom means in Islam; and you will feel free from depression, frustration, hurt and fear because God will set you free..
Thank you Allah for your endless blessings!!!!!
“…Truly my Lord is with me, He will Guide me through.”(Q26:62)
At the uni’s library..taking continuous steps (2006-2016)..1st degree 2nd degree & now its the final degree Alhamdulillah