‘Fed-Up!’ from Musings of a Mualaf’s blog

FED-UP

Aliya,
i am a follower of your blog. i am chinese muslim for 5 years, married with 3 children. in beginning i lived like good muslimah but now i begin to get fedup. i know it not right but i donno what to do oredi. my husband want me to be solehah wife and mother, but he doesnt teach me islam bcoz he busy with work and come back late. my husband good man but always busy. my 3 children are still small and need me to always care for them. i work in office and when i get home, i have no rest bcoz i have to care for the children pulak. i have no maid bcoz husband cannot pay. i look back and think my life before i become muslim better and more happy than now. of course i love my family but i cannot tahan everytime got problems. before i become muslim i am buddhist. i dont have many problems like now. now got money problem, children sick problem, husband not home problem, work problem. i very tired have to do all myself. i read that problem is test from allah to test i believe in allah or not. i know i am not very strong in islam. i look strong, people say i good muslimah bcoz i wear tudung, but i dont feel like a good muslimah. i tired of test from allah. i dont want anymore allah test. i oredi tired with so many problems, i donno what to do if i get new test from allah. i cannot talk to husband this problem bcoz he will scold me and tell me to zikir and pray more. how to pray and zikir more when i always tired and got new test? sometimes i feel like leaving and go back to old life bcoz old life no many problems. i stay bcoz i love my husband and children. please tell me what to do.i dont care if u put in your blog bcoz i want answers. i tired and dont want anymore test from allah. i dont want to murtad but i fedup with so many problems, non stop always got problems, no rest. i see other muslim not so difficult life compare to me. why must i be the one to get this tests and problems. how to ask allah not to give me any more test and problems? why other people dont get so many test from allah? why me, when i oredi cannot tahan anymore.

jamilah
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Assalamualaikum,
Ada siapa yang boleh bantu nasihat sister ini?
Saya ada hal lain, hanya sempat pos emel dia sekarang, untuk renungan semua.
Terima kasih, wassalam.

3 comments:

The Tea Drinker said…

suami dia kena support dia lebih. masalah yg disebut2 pun bukannya exklusif kepada orang Islam tu. orang agama mana2 pun dapat masalah tu.

orang Islam pun ramai dapat masalah camtu cuma rasanya kita dah biasa dengan konsep usaha dan berserah maka masalah itu tidak ganggu teruk sangat. macam saya pernah dengan masalah kewangan, campur lagi anak kerap sakit dan macam2 lagi masa tu. tp kita tau, kalau tak diuji macam mana nak tau kita betul2 beriman dan sabar? dan sekarang dia tau sejauh mana sayang dia kat suami dan anak.

panjang ni kalau nak nasihat pun. perlu face to face. jadi eloknya dia jumpa la ustazah mana2 untuk consultation.

[nurfarahsyakirah] said…

I tried to comment here but maybe my comment is too long so I have to post it using my blog.

This is my letter for sister Jamilah. 🙂

http://therockinghijab.blogspot.com/2011/09/advice-from-revert-to-revert.html

Hariz Khair Ad-Deen said…

Salam…

Stahu sy, Allah akn mnguji seseorg itu, hnya ssuai mngikut kmampuannya. Jika saudari diuji spt itu, dn rsa xmmpu. Pcayalah, sbnanye saudari mmpu! Cuma, tkdng, diri kita yg cba mnolak kmmpuan yg ad, dn mngatakn pd dri kita yg kita sdah tak mmpu… wpn hkikatnya, kita mmpu shj utk terus sabar dn btahan.

inshaAllah, ykinlah jua pdNya, slps ksushn ad kmudhn. (surah As-Syarh)

Stuju jga, dgn kta2 the tea drinker, mslh2 ni, bkn ekslusif dr Islam je. ini mslh2 yg tdk asing, mncul dlm khidupn, dn inshaAllah, bleh dislesaikn, mlalui usaha, prbincangn, dn doa kpd Allah.

wallahu’alam. apa2pn, sy nsihatkn, fikir jauh2 dlu, sblm buat apa2 kputusn. igt Allah, dlm apa2 jua situasi. cba bsangka baik pdNya. mudah2an, Allah mmpermudhkn urusan saudari. inshaAllah

mgkin saudari bleh jga tgk link2 ni, utk mngaut motivasi dn kkuatan sdikit sbyk.. biiznillah 🙂

http://onekuliah.blogspot.com/2011/04/dr-asri-suratan-kebetulan.html

http://www.iluvislam.com/inspirasi/motivasi/3018-aku-tidak-mampu.html

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